New Orleans, Part 1

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I was looking for New Orleans. After two days in the city, I was itching to find it. It being an undefinable something I hadn’t yet discovered, but that I would soon recognize as being quantifiably New Orleans. Maybe I was looking for the heart of the city. Or its soul.

But that it can’t be forced. Truth be told, I don’t think it really exists.

The problem is that I was looking for my idea of the city: a fictional amalgamation of various incarnations of the Big Easy pulled from books and movies, music and stories, even visits to Disneyland. I was looking now for a New Orleans that no longer existed and would never exist, a romantic vision that mingled the most haunting and historic aspects of its past with the most poetic and glimmering hopes of what it could be.

As a visitor, I nonetheless didn’t want to be a tourist. As a stranger, I nonetheless wanted this city to be familiar.

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Whatever I was looking for wasn’t in the drunken bustle and hooting on Bourbon Street. It wasn’t in the hemmed-in stretch of water that I belatedly realized was The River. It wasn’t in the unshaven beggars and tipsy street artists, the bands competing for ambient dominance on every block in the French Quarter, the slick nods to voodoo and ghosts and vampires in every corner shop selling suggestive T-shirts and factory-produced Mardi Gras masks.

I didn’t want the New Orleans everyone else got. I wanted my own, private New Orleans—one that met my lofty expectations and revealed to me the secrets it knew I was looking for, even if I didn’t know what they were.

I wanted, I suppose, to be welcomed into a family that had been waiting for me to return to a home I’d never lived in, to feed me with authentic, generation-spanning crawfish-and-catfish recipes, to speak to me with a Creole patois and pull back a beaded curtain to reveal—aha, yes—the New Orleans I’d built in my mind.

My search was, of course, both naively selfish and obviously fruitless. I think we all do this when we travel—if we travel—though we do it to varying degrees. We search for the Hollywood sign in the redwood forests of Northern California. We look for smoky, starlit French cafés in the middle of a Parisian traffic jam.

I do, anyway.

I imagine wandering alone or with my wife along otherwise deserted stretches of parks, museum corridors and galleries, famous and photogenic thoroughfares, architectural marvels and monuments—and then bristle at everyone else doing the same. As author Bill Buford wrote, “The crowd is not us. It never is.”

When I arrive, I complain that I can’t see the city for the tour buses and tacky merchandise and people. Really, I can’t see the city for my own expectations.

And when I realized that—remembered it, really—I was able to find the New Orleans that was there: the solid, welcoming, real New Orleans with wet sidewalks and commercialized mystique. It.

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All history is manufactured, and it’s still being churned out today. Marie Laveau’s tomb. The graffiti on Marie Laveau’s tomb. The historical society member/tour guide lamenting the graffiti, the attempts to remove the graffiti, the attempts to repair the damage made by the attempts to remove the graffiti.

One night, my wife and I ate at an obviously modern restaurant set up in a building erected in the 1780s. We bought locally made pecan praelines that were individually wrapped in plastic and packaged for shipment anywhere in the United States. At another restaurant, we asked about the property’s history, only to learn that our apologetic New York waitress had only been in town for a couple of months and had no idea as to its past. “I think a princess lived here?” she ventured. We sipped absinthe in a pirate-themed bar, where we pushed two chairs next to a gas fireplace and ignored the ATM against my wife’s back. Next door was a bookstore set up in the space where William Faulkner worked on his first published novel. Election-day paraphernalia for a local office littered the streets. Emergency-vehicle sirens split the night in numbers the likes of which I’ve never previously heard.

I had expected a city preserved like a dragonfly in amber. But despite all my looking down for what was crystallized and unchanging, I was fortunate to catch a quick glimpse of iridescent blue-green wings lifting into the muggy Southern air. To catch a quick glimpse of New Orleans.

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8 thoughts on “New Orleans, Part 1

  1. Carleen Butterfield says:

    Thanks Ryan.

  2. You were looking for your New Orleans and I think you found it. Thank you for the vivid depiction of a city I love. It felt like I was discovering it again.

  3. the Farmy says:

    It makes me think of Big Fish. Wandering into something…

  4. jenmuse says:

    Y’all need to visit Charleston, SC. I think you will find it more what you expected New Orleans to be. But with fewer drunk people.

  5. Anonymous says:

    I found that early iconic New Orleans when I went through an antique shop – you can get a real sense of history from old furniture and gilded things (seriously, almost everything was gilded). Glad you got to explore. Having gone in the even more humid July, there were a lot fewer people…and atms as it was 15 years ago. You may have better luck touring old mansions
    …they like to keep their dragonflies in amber so to speak.

  6. Allison Jakes says:

    I visited New Orleans in 2010 on a church trip to help clean up the damage that Hurricane Katrina had left in 2005. I was only 14 years old, so I found the city endlessly fascinating and magical. It was dirty, there were a lot of bums, and I got to see the devastation that was/is District 9. But I suppose that’s what is expected of a city. Look beyond all the grime, and you’ll find the historical beauty. I especially loved the French Quarter (and Bourbon Street was quite a shocker that I found infinitely entertaining). I cannot wait to visit again (hopefully, after I turn 21). I’m glad that you found the New Orleans you were looking for!

  7. Reblogged this on Jane Eyre Likes Cupcakes and commented:
    This was written by my coworker and editor, Ryan Miller, and posted on his blog “Standing in the Shallows” a couple of weeks ago. I’m interested in sharing it because I’ve noticed that I have the same tendencies when traveling: I look for the city I’m expecting and it sometimes takes me awhile to recover and appreciate what’s there. If you want to learn more about Ryan, you can check out my Accomplices page or his website.

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